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Exams is over!!! 
in fact, it ended long ago just that i am too lazy to blog. Exams paper are ok but i dun think i can score very well.. i only hope to get credits! hai~ Can't imagine i had studied for a year le.... so fast/... Looking forward to graduation trip. I will most probably spend the remaining 2.5 years mugging at SIM library. . . . .

Back to the "fun" this holiday,
-my greatest aim this holiday is to lose at least 5 kg!!!!!!!!
- had a lot of funs already.. met my poly mates... singing and clubbing!!!!
 (Found another good place to club- st james power house)
- gotta start working soon- going back to airport to assist passenger at the auto clearance gate
- save money for bangkok trip!!!!!



More fun ahead!!!!! waiting for yu ling to finish exams then we can SHOPPing Shopping and shopping!!!!!
SIstas jia you at work or studies ok!! loveyoumissyou!


 

i AM  officailly 22 old now, will be 23 next year and 24 the following year.. oh soon it will be 30~~..... WTH!!!
Girls thanks for the suprises!!! PandaRocks! i love the card. The jacket was a super surprise. All of you can go get oscar award lo. and i realised i am the only one who often spoil the surprise..next time i will improve!!! And Also thanks to all the friends who wishes me, they range from my dearest sistass, secondary classmates, ploymates and my lunch-buddy at prsc. Even those working or studying overseas left me a message. Guess who the one who totally forgetton !!! it's  MISS J***A .C.... message me and call me a few times but she forgotten to wish me.. hahaha..

Whether i am still 21 or already 22, the facts is still have to study for exams. Previous semester was disastrous, resultS was like S**t. hAHAH.....So Study hard !!! Cant wait for after exam!!! firstly i want to exercise, i think i have gain too much weight le. Secondly, BAngkok trip, althought it was postponed to jan but i am still SO excited!! Going off to study....  


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Last paper for my my mid-term exam on the fifteen step. oh ya its steph's birthday! the end  of mugging for mid term= to start for the final exam.  NO life ah! this morning went to sent jackson off at the airport.. oh. he will be real back soon.. so i have to start my revision if nt i will die under his mouth!!!! have a short gathering at ya kun after that. cool!  we have not meet for a while!!

i have been looking forward for the next trips since i was back from germany. i thought that trip would be wonderful however not, i was treated badly and was disgusted by... (refer to the previous post). haha it;s over i think it's time for me to put it down and mention it for tthe last time.  yes!!! going to bangkok again!! yeah yeah yeah!!! cool! fun! yes!!!!!! Going together with steph, julia and wan ling !!! now i just have
to ask mum for permisson. 

she will most probadly scold me but i dun care ehh ehh ehh!!! haha.. she also going with my auntie, hope she wont plan the same day as mine.,.. the politics in thailand is strong enough, i dun want any govt around to supervise me.. whahaha.. this   round i must be well prepared. bring a bigger luggage and dun think too much just buy! spend all the money broke le then come back singapore eat grass!!! free and nutritious!!! or i just have to sit beside daddy/ah ma act ke lian! dramatic but useful leh!!! now is the crucial period to save money for the trip..i mop the foor for ten dollar each time. My dad singed a 10 times package with me le... haha no la cos i got no money for maple clinic so i volunteer to mop for the $100. in additions, i also forced my sister to pay for the shorts i brought at contton on. And i saw i pair of shoe i like and i try to hint to ah ma... hha no la.. wont ask her buy for me la.. that time the sneaker she brought for  me one so i cannt be so bad.... so i shall mop the floor and earn my air ticket to bangkok!! hahaha..




 

The never ending exams is killing me!!

pls grant me high D, i am really workin very very hard!!! not  so ambitious la.. all i wish is 3 credit and 1 distinction.

 

It's a bad day for me. I found one of my fish sick this morning. I wanted to get some commercial remedy after school but it was dead even before i finish class, another one at the verge of dying. I tried my best, i even borrow books from library. Yesterday they were fine ,after i change some of the water, over a night everything changes. I JUST WANT TO KEEP SOME FISHES, WHY ALL DIE ONE! Daddy promise me to let me have the car tomorrow but he changed his mind because mum wants to buy something at the jurong market. For the sake of sending my mum to buy durian for her precious daughter who is coming back this sunday so he break his promise upset her another less precious daughter. She is coming back on the national day morning so why should i  fetch her at the airport, its a waste of time. I will still go to the airport but to study at starbucks for the whole day. I dun want to share my room with her, i am so use to have the room to myself. She will create a mess in my room. I am self-fish, so what,i learned it from her. Maybe i should share with everyone some of incident why i hate her after my return from germany.

1. she barked at me with tat idotic face for not knowing how to lock the toliet door. 

2. I asked her to order the mac for me , she say why should she buy for me with that idotic face. Then her friend volunteer to order for me and i say dun need because i was angry. then she start telling her friend i very rude and ask her friend why they can stand me. what did i did wrong. i only say dun need, i wasnt rude at all i said it normally. So what is rude to her, just like this or not calling the elderly.

3. she call home and cried because she ate bread everyday. then how about me i ate bread there everyday also what. i ask her what is the breakfast tomorrow. So she tell me is bread, i only say " huh" then again the same attitude. She tell her friend i very high class one cannot eat bread must eat at high class places.

4. she abandon me because i was too tired to walk. so i walk down the street and brought my favourite starbucks ,sat on the grass and wait for them. its not about leaving me alone, i am really fine with it but is her attitiude. All she cares is her friends not me. I admit my attitude was not very nice that day but i already have blister then i should walk untill i die of pain because her friend still wants to continue isth? I know she was angry so i have to pretend to be friendly and happy again when they are back. And when i was not around, she badmouth me to her friends, for what huh? to please them lo. She told them i tai tu er lei. I was not around but i comfrimed garantee chop she said that.

5. someone broke a item at a shop. she insited of not paying. I think is the matter of principle ba that she should take the responsibility. Then my sister told me to wait for  that someone a while see can dun pay or not wor and ture enough she never pay. Throw singaporean face lo, that shop keeper was damn angry!

6. on that day of my departure back to singapore, we went to the lv shop. She did mention  about getting a kebah for me to try so i was very hungry and i asked for that kebah. She shouted back at me, you cannt wait meh that day i already say for lunch. What did i did wrong, i am just simply hungry. And after that i realised why, is because all of her friends planned to eat together for lunch so too bad lo i have to be scolded.

7. one fine day, she say why i always showing black face. i didnt answer her but nw i tell you is because i was not happy. So she also show me her black face. because of what, because i cant keep smiling to please her friend. 

8.let me tell you an good example of what is about communist. For example when everyone is making their way to the BMW museum and suddenly someone realised that entrance fee is not free so she deceided not to go and without asking the rest she will just turn her body and go back. and also because i am from a democratic country and i was angry. shouldnt she have to ask the rest first. Ture enough, it was obviously angry. So she asked me, you want to go to the museum isth? then what can i say. i said " forget it" never mind. then what in return her black face and not wanting to take a photo for me. then somemore scarcaticism " i thought you like museum" when i wanted to find a seat to rest at another museum. but that fact is i prefer bmw then posche museum leh! and most angry thing is about the communist example i wrote just now.  


9. Can you imagine when i person call you ignorant. I was sicked and wanted some warm water so i ignorant la. i never study water how i know cannot drink warm tap water. She heard her friend saying that and she ask me to bare with it and dun create a mess for her. i dun expect her to scold her friend back anyway , at least she should just say something like she never study about water so she dunno la..

10. She always say i too slow, but i dun think i am slowest. i eat the fastest bathe the fastest pack bag also fast. then what she expect milltary training ah! yah la, i admit sometime i walk a bit slow. so will delay her friends plans ma so i applogised !


These ten reasons is enough to prove why i hate her so much. at second thought, i cant really blame her friends, i should blame my sister. her name is koh jia jia everyone pls take note. one of her friends was quite nice to me and another can be nice at some times. it's ok now, she is not important to me anymore. i had played my part as a sister;i always spare a thought for her but she take it for granted. i am not even worth a lv bag. I wasted all my tears for crying so much because i miss her and worry for her and she happily spent all the money my mum gave her.

thats all about my bad day! i gotta study hard! and cant wait for the bangkok trips!

Exam are coming but i dun think i am working hard enough. Feeling stress although i dun look like i am!



if anyone spot any spelling mistake and erorr.. tell me ok.. i lazy to read again. hhaa


 

study hard everyone!!!

My only saturday with no com law lesson is gone ! I am already opposite my school waiting for the u turn when i recieved a call from a friend. Guess what!! there is no class that day. Early in the morning, i wasted my trip,i should have check the timetable previous day. Luckily daddy drove me there. Mum and grandma were in the  car too, they wanted to go to the market at jurong west. We had our breakfast there and brought durians. I think buying durian every weekend had become my mum's hobby. I love durian! Plan to get the new members for my little aquarium, visited 3 but none have the ideal size goldfish i wanted. Went home in the noon and had to mop the floor. This morning i went to tamp library and a second round hunt for my goldfish. Finally i got them! Exams are nearing.. pls grant me high D. i never got one in my life pls give it to me!!! 

My 8 Ram is officially all dead now. probadly this is also one of the reason that makes me sad these days. I did whatever i can, i clean the tank real clean!
iamdetermineto keep my little aquarium running. I will be getting goldfishes, 2 red and one black. this time i will do a better job! i swear if  they cant survive for at least a month i will keep my tank.

Clubbing at Zouk was fun. Drank an expensive alcohol and realised that it taste more sucks as it get more expensive.  haaha. Sooner or later i will be a absolute addictted clubber. Just went on last sat and already planning for the next one. Dlb O rocks! ,i always think that it's a cheap and good place. whhaa but its yu ling birthday so she will have the final say!. haha..yesh!  i stayed back in school to study today! nt pretending to be hardworking! aha fighting! fighting! Study most of the time off course plus some gosippinn sessions. i kept telling them about that idot. Although she suck, i still feel bad about some words i said. Robin and wan ling said there is nthing to feel bad about since i am just stating the facts. I decided not to feel bad anymore. i should not even ever feel bad, her word is 100000 times more cruel than mine.






My life is full of hatred..i have my limits, i dun hate a person easily bt once i hate them, i will hate them deep from my heart. 

hate 3 person deeply to date

I realised the importance of EQ, a person  without it can makes me hate them that much and i even feel like writing a poem about how irritating she can be.

Welcome the new members to my little aquarium!
The breed is call RAM. Daddy suggested to have them, i am fine with it although i still prefer goldfish.
They are rather colourful but hardly move.

There is lot of things to do; tommorrow i gotta start reading my account notes.
Must pass man! if not i will be expel from RMIT. not just my studies, there is more i want to do
for example i want to convince myself to buy that pair of sandal i saw today.
I LOVE IT!!!!!!! i really want to get them but there are more important things so i must spend wisely.








 

Sunday morning we are still at dlb o
Evening we are already at marina barage for picnic!
  (  thks to all the guys who took good care of us!)
A nice weekend with all my sisters + their bf!
Very disappointed cos my layang didnt fly. should have read the weather report! But never mind, i still enjoyed the picnic.
I dun feel like going back to school. Slackers have the price to pay and i am paying it back soon. Cant imagine i have to see that same lecturer agian, hopefully this time he will teach better or he had been teaching well just that i too stupid to understand him. Amanda koh hui hui! study hard!!!!! fighting! fighting!!!......
 

Finally got my hair done and i'm still trying to get use to my new fringe. It cost me $187 and it seems like i gotta join cass eatting grass soon. its already a yearly routine and i think i gotta struck to it for many more years. Hope mum will feed me more with vit M than vit C.
Steph waited for me at the saloon and we met julia for dinner. She break a shocking news to us, i feel so sad to see julia feeling down, i understand how she feels, but the only thing we can do is to encourage her to think positively. as for yu ling and rui xiang too.. i will pray for you all de.  Julia !!,.. no matter what you still got us ok. Cheer up !!!  So gan dong when steph say can help me if i cant save enough for the genting trip.. hhaa i will try my best la. i really want to have a enjoyable holiday this year since the pevious one was not. I think this genting trip will be much better than whatever europe tour. Not even a  single message form her since i am back and not even calling home ,what kind of sister is this. I really doubt the importance of kinship in her. oh its father's day this sunday, we gotta have my fav fish steamboat for dinner. Grandma ask me to pay for the dinner and i say i dun want wor! i think i buy a shirt for him la.. cheaper than the dinner and more affordable for me.


 God will decide the best path for you..BE COOL BE STRONG AND BE HAPPY!!!

haha.. my fish tank is fine now.. daddy and me filled it up again and realised that there is no leakage, probadly the leakage is due to the filter ba, not important anymore.. just hope the three fishes will live happily ever after. Looking forward to the picnic at marine barage. i'm going to buy myself a kite and i gotta Enjoy the sun with lot of sun block on! plan to rebond my hair next week, hope this time will be a good one. Less than 3 weeks to sch start, hope this 3 years will pass quickly and safely! get myself job after that and start saving up for my SKII and LV bag.


Looking forward to something makes me happy! happiness is just so pure and simple.

My fish tank is half-filled with water now. Wanted to find out the cause of the leakage but i think i shall not disturd them. The remaining 4 fishes seem to be restless and sicked.. two of them cant even swim upright. My heart broke! i got a feeling that my little aquarium will be gone forever.... yah,  most likely ...because mum and dad will most probadly ask me to keep everything. Hope they will get well soon ba. 

Feeling sad for few days already, but at least there is still something i am looking forward to and makes me feel happy about it. firstly is the shopping trip on next wed with the girls! i long wanted one. hurray,. it had been months i have not  go shopping... erm...other than online shopping at  zipia where i like lot of things but too poor to buy all of them. Secondly is to the butter factory, clubbing is so fun! even our julia fell in love with it, hope all the girls can go together... haha.




--BOF is damn nice. it makes me laugh and cry everynight! go and watch!!!!!--





 

oh my god! i failed one subject. I thought i will not be upset by it! It did not affect me initially, however not anymore. i realised that rmit do not allow students to take more than 4 modules each sem. So this simply means that i have to retain for another sem.. they allow students to take 5 in the last sem but have to go for interview. i think i am going to retain for sure; i got a friend who failed by one mark and rmit refused to pass him even though he appealed. So i think is not easy to pass their interview.. perhaps is rather easy, ahaha..i really hope so. Money is nt the concern anymore, is the time that i reallt dun want to waste. And very sorry to poor daddy who have to pay another one thousand plus for me to repeat my subject. I gotta work harded! maybe i always think that this degree can be buy by money since it is very expensive. Is time  for me to change my stereotyped mind and study harder. At my second thought, i feel like changin course ,but i think i will still go back to square one cos i really dunno what i really want. And i dun want to upset daddy cos he dun think i should do that since i already started. Mama said luckily i only fail one wor, she doesnt have high hope for me, she only wish i can get a degree and join immigration after that. 

I just flew back from germany,i always thought that europe is that amazing and wonderful, but not anymore. The most disappointing is old town square ( bu la ge guan chang) because there is nothing much there. Nt as nice as most people say. Dun want to talk about the trip anymore, maybe i am too upset by the rmit system or maybe they are too much feeling that i would like to leave it untouch. haha... i wish my sister to come back soon. already missing her althought we just met few days ago. i think if  my sister read all theses she will think i sucks disgusting and act cute .. but i will still remind her to read. (As what yu ling said.. its somewhere you can let others know your feelings)....although i might not be the most important to her.. but i want to let her know i love my family, she may thinks that money is the way you express how much you dote me but i would prefer some concern from you.   My tai tu ei lei, but i always have my reason for doing so.. i am really tired or upset about something. that is my temper and it have been going on for the past 2 decade. But can let her experienced tai tu ei lei because she always show her black face at home. I think i really did my part as a sister, i always tried my best to please her./. maybe she dun feel it but i swear i really did.But at least i am glad to see her doing well in germany. my heart really broke when she call back and said that she feel very bad there. I really wish i can fly there immediately and take care of her. And i am also glad that she have the chance to travel around europe, maybe she can bring me to the best place in europe the next time. haha..  i think she is sick and tired of europe by now, never mind is ok actually i prefer to shop at bangkok rather then traveling to europe la.. but its a experience. Cant wait for her to be back for shopping trips! i hope her hobby wont change after she come back ba. oh thanks ah koh jia jia for the long champ bag i really love it a lot.  

Once again thanks to all my sista who sent me at airport, called me or messge me to send their regards. Thanks a lot. i only manage to get some small gifts for you all cos things are expensive there. but i miss you all a lot when i am away ok.. i kept thinking of... wan ling safety for working at airport... whether yu ling can finish her project..  are julia and cass doing fine and did steph anyhow spend money when i am not around... hhaha.... hahaa

Two fish dead after i came home, haiyo one dead when i am away. so sad. tml i shall wake up early and start cleaning the fish tank. hai~ sad. .....

This is the longest post i have ba.  lot of gramma and spelling error will be expected,,, pls bear with me!  

Its 7.45 am , i should appreciate darkness here, the sky will only darken at 10pm and the sun rises at 4 am again. haha.. i reach jia jia's hostel at about 3 pm. My sister suppose to rush down  from sch to fetch me at the airport and she told me to wait for an hour, however thks to her friend who fetched me, if not i have stare into air for another hour. I experienced the german train for the first time upon arrival. it tooked about 45 min ride to her hostel.Sister and her friends prepared a delicious dinner for me. i Spent most of the time sleeping cos i am realy exhuasted. I didnt sleep in the flight at all, nt because there is 1000 channel to entertain me, i just can't fall alsleep la.

Back to the emirates flight, i was fed 4 times in total. The food was nice i can say. After every meal, i will just tell myself 700 bucks for the ticket is damn worth it man. The desert for the first meal was tiramisu haha. Oh i sat beside 2 black man, lucky they alight at colombo. Another black man board at colombo, i think he is a african american. The center seat was left empty. The flight to hamburg was the best, i have 2 seat to my own. 

Dubai airport was very spacious but lack of seats, transit security was faster than i expected. Hardly see any chinese untill i reach the departure gates. The staffs there were alright laa, the sign board are far apart, i constantly checked with them to ensure i am in my right way...typically kaisu and kaisi singaporean. I was told by the emirates staffs in singapore that all emirates flight will depart and arrive in terminal 3 but the flight to hamburg depart from terminal 1 lo. lucliy i can find it, actually was easy but very far. I think the structure and design of dubai airport average only.. i think singapore one nicer ah. haha Hamburg airport was small. I almost scare to death when the flight was declining, ( i think steph and julia will understand). So scary!

Will be going out later, my sister is still sleeping. i think i gotta packed her room later. its so messy! just like at home i have to clear the mess for her all the times. but  i think she have learned to be indepenent le.. she have to do everything here!! including washing the toliet..haha will contine soon.......
 

Another bored day!  Woke up at 11 am, have my breakfast and lunch within 2 hours. oh! the only fruitful thing that i had done today was helping my grandma with the "dumpling-making" preparation . We can swallow-in a dumpling in just few mins but the process of making  it is damn tedious man. Today was only the preparation work, not the "wrapping" procedures, yet grandma and mum spent the whole afternoon preparing them. There are more more work to be done. I helped to wash the leaves for wrapping the dumplings. Sounds easy right! no it is not , i swear! The leaves have to be rub and wash one by one and repeat the process a few times. So tiring lo!!! never mind, i am looking forward to enjoy the delicious dumpling.. yummy! Was watching CJ 7 a moment ago, nice show, although i watched with my sister before le but still able to entertain me for a while. ermm. tired le. wil continue the next time, cya.

Four more days to go,Feelin much better now but still coughing. All i wish is a miracle that i can wake up completely well. i Went to white sands this afternoon to get some stuffs, returned the overdued library books and have lunch with ah ma. The weather is super hot, no wonder everyone falling sick these days. Went home after that, took my medicines again and sleep.. haha.
 
So gan dong, my mum and daddy sponsored me a bit for the trip's expenses. haha My sister was right, she say our mum won't be so heng xing one. and that's true. very thankful if not i will completely broke when i come back. 
 

oh no! its not the right time to fall sick now. haha luckily it's a minor cough. I am determined to recover by next week so my routine everyday now will be take medicines, sleep and watch tv. I have not packed anything yet, my luguage is still sleeping in the storeroom. Nothing much to bring just that gonna bring some stuffs over for my sister. I am excited yet hoping tuesday night not to come so soon because it will be over soon too. Perhaps, this is life, we have to accept the fact that enjoyable moments will not last forever. But i am glad that it will stay in my memories for a life time.
 

Welcome to my thepandadiary! - messages to all my bao bei

To all my sista: 
Yeah! finally i have a blog and i hope to record down every moment  with you gals. love you all always. Although we often quarrel and misunderstood each other.. it doesnt matter ok, because it will bring us closer each time and there will be many more ten years that we will spend together.

To jia jia:
Jia jia i really miss you a lot. Very thankful that you purge out all your saving just to filfull my dream to Germany. i love you. see ya soon.
 

To family:

oh mother dun scold me anymore!! i swear you did say i can go before i buy the tickets..pls dun deny it la. Daddy and ah ma thanks for your moral support although i knew that you dun want me to go. But now i need financial support more now . anyone? haha